Pondering Thoughts: My Worst Enemy

Have you ever wondered if you have an enemy that you despised all along? That no matter what you do, it’s always at the back of your mind; just waiting to burst into open!

Well, in my case, I have discovered my worst enemy many years ago. I have accepted it as my ‘alter ego’ whenever I transform into my ‘evilest self’. I fear for my ‘evilest self’ and I have been exerting extra efforts not to let myself transform into it.

I haven’t told anyone about this, but I am sure that for those people closest to me may know about this. I kept on hinting people about it….. this keeps me sane! I usually give warning to a few selected people. The warning goes like this: “Huwag mo akong gagalitin dahil ibang-iba ako pag sobrang galit ako. Sigurado kong hindi mo magugustuhan dahil ako mismo hindi ko gusto!” And I stopped there. I don’t elaborate even if someone asked me.

I am spilling the beans now. My ‘evilest self’ has tendencies: to be a war freak, to hurt myself or hurt others, and to attempt suicidal act. And if I survived my 'evilest self', I would hate that person who caused my 'super angry' mood forever.

I had been transformed into my ‘evilest self’ before, and I continuously controlling myself not to get ‘super angry’. I always pray to God for enough strength to avoid my ‘evilest self’!